not a man I used to be_

unrequited love

By the time you read this
you may not know me too well.
But then again, we may be close.
You can never really tell.


You used to call me "Daddy."
I used to hold you tight.
I used to bathe you every day,
and tuck you in at night.

I should love your Mommy more.
We should have sat and talked.
The love grew cold, the words got hot,
and then one day i walked.

I cried the night i left you all.
I cry again today.
It seems that's all I've done
since that night I went away.

I hope you know i love you.
Though I wasn't always there.
I think about you constantly,
and you are always in my prayers.

I hope someday you'll understand
that this thing hurt me too.
I hope you know, I always have
and always will love you.

I'm not the man I used to be.
I've learned alot since then.
I wish that I could turn back time,
and live with you again.

But I can't change the things I did,
or take back the things I've said.
All I can do is write these words
while lying here in bed.

I hope that when you read this,
you will know this one thing's true:
That no one else in this whole world
means more to me than you.


-APOLOGY TO A CHILD-