not a man I used to be_

unrequited love

By the time you read this
you may not know me too well.
But then again, we may be close.
You can never really tell.

walk out on me_

walked out on me AGAIN, huh? 
but don't mind me. 

this too shall pass.

you know me. 

te extrano mucho_

bismillah~

in the name of The Most Merciful.. 

He knows.

He knows how much that I miss them. 

He knows. 

If something is meant to go elsewhere, it will never come your way, but if it is yours by destiny, from you it cannot flee.” 

-Umar Ibn al-Khattab

one day, when the given time has come, we shall meet again.

we shall meet again.

if He wills it.

but i didn't_

I meant to say hi, 

but I didn't. 

I meant not to just pass by,

neither to look nor just give away a sigh.

I meant to, 

but I didn't. 

who?

i try to forget some things.

i forgot things.

i kept on forgetting things.

sometimes i even forgot what i should have been forgetting.

oh my! who did you say you were before?

dOn't cry_

ArRahman always has 3 replies to all of our prayers; 

i) Yes

ii) Yes, but not now 

iii) I have a better plan for u

there's never a NO_

"Indeed, there is ease with hardship. Most certainly, there is ease with hardship. (94: 5-6)

p/s: trust Allah. believe in His promises. ^^

an- nisaa

Aku Cuma An-Nisaa

Ya Allah..
Jadikan aku tabah seperti Ummu Khadijah
Sehingga dirinya digelar afifah solehah
Dialah wanita pertama
Tiada ragu mengucap syahadah
Pengorbanan bersama Rasulullah
Susah senang bersama
Walau hilang harta kerana berdakwah
Walau dipulau 3 tahun 3 bulan
Imannya sedikit pun tak berubah
Mampukah aku setabah dirinya?
Andai diuji sedikit sudah rebah..
Baru dihina sudah mengalah
Ya Allah..tabahkan aku sepertinya..

my smiLe_

So many times am I asked “why so?”

“Why do you smile while you live this way?”

Their minds unable to comprehend my life,

Strange for them to see a smile all day.

I sit by a river while resting at dusk,

My hands are dry - my clothes are torn.

My horse grazing on the luscious grass,

Relaxing for now until upon me is dawn.

liVe weLL or liVe heLL. we chOOse_

Dear all....

Live in the present.

Deal with it, good or bad,

and you won't have to deal with it again,

but try to avoid it or fight it,

and you will find yourself in an unhappy and long struggle

until you're ready to accept it as it is.

trOubLe iS a fRieNd_

Once upon a time there was a little woman who walked along the dusty field path. She was quite old yet her steps were light and springy and her smile had the fresh glow of a carefree girl. She stopped at a cowered figure and looked down. She couldn't recognize much.

The being that sat in the dirt on the path seemed to be almost bodiless. She reminded her of a grey flannel blanket with human shape.

The little woman bent a little forward and asked: "Who are you?"

carrOt, an egg or a cOffee bean??

A young woman went to her mother and told her about her life and how things were so hard for her. She did not know how she was going to make it and wanted to give up. She was tired of fighting and struggling. It seemed as though just as one problem was solved, a new one arose.

Her mother took her to the kitchen. She filled three pots with water and placed each on a high fire. Soon the pots came to a boil.

In the first, she placed carrots, in the second she placed eggs, and in the last she placed ground coffee beans. She let them sit and boil, without saying a word.

In about twenty minutes she turned off the burners. She fished the carrots out and placed them in a bowl. She pulled the eggs out and placed them in a bowl. Then she ladled the coffee out and placed it in a bowl.

leT's eXceL tOgetHer_

Once there was a very handsome, pious, well educated young man, whose parents emphasised for him to get married. They had seen so many marriage proposals, and he had turned them all down. The parents thought it was becoming a little ridiculous or suspected that he may have someone else in mind.

However every time the parents left the girls house, the young man would always say ‘she’s not the one!’

The young man only wanted a girl who was religious and practicing, however one evening his mother arranged for him, to meet a girl, who was religious, and practicing.

On that evening, the young man, and girl, were left to talk, and ask each other questions. (As one would expect).

The young man, being a gentleman that he was allowed, the lady to ask first.

a girL's hearT desiRe_

Sometimes,

I want to open my hijab,

and show the world,

that I too,

am beautiful in the people's definition.

But,

deep down here,

in my little heart,

I know that beauty is by definition,

a mystery.

and it is forever more rewarding,

to be beautiful in God's eyes.